AIN'T A JOURNEY

by Danielle Schroeder


The inspiration for this song came to me during one of our monthly young adult support circles.

I have sat in these circles every month now for 10 years, and every circle I find I develop a deeper awareness of what it takes not just physically, but emotionally, mentally, and socially, on a daily basis to live with cancer as a young adult—to feel hope in the midst of uncertainty, to keep finding meaning and purpose, to trust that people can really be there for you. It was during one of these circles that I was pierced to my core when one person made this comment: “People always say it’s a journey when you go through a cancer diagnosis. But for me it hasn’t been a journey at all. It feels like a prison I wake up in every day.”

photo by Ryan Mah / click to enlarge

Ain't a Journey ~ lyrics

VERSE
 
Don’t tell me
Don’t tell me
That it will be alright
 
Don’t tell me
Don’t tell me
That there’s no hope in sight
 
Don’t tell me
Don’t tell me
Cause’ neither feels right
 
CHORUS
 
Cause it ain’t a journey like you say,
More like a prison I wake in each day
 
Don’t wanna feel what I feel
Don’t wanna know this is real
 
Cause it ain’t a journey like you say,
More like a prison I wake in each day
 
Lost and alone
Empty words on the phone.
 
VERSE
 
Don’t tell me
Don’t tell me
This pain will go away
 
Don’t tell me
Don’t tell me
This pain is here to stay
 
Don’t tell me
Don’t tell me
Cause’ neither feels right
 
CHORUS
 
Cause it ain’t a journey like you say,
More like a prison I wake in each day
 
Don’t wanna feel what I feel
Don’t wanna know this is real
 
Cause it ain’t a journey like you say,
More like a prison I wake in each day
 
Lost and alone
Empty words on the phone.
 
BRIDGE
 
Fell down once or twice
Climbed back once or twice
Didn’t have a choice
 
Fell down once or twice
Climbed back once or twice
Didn’t have a choice
 
CHORUS
 
Cause it ain’t a journey like you say,
More like a prison I wake in each day
 
Don’t wanna feel what I feel
Don’t wanna know this is real
 
Cause it ain’t a journey like you say,
More like a prison I wake in each day
 
Lost and alone
Empty words on the phone.

 

Danielle Schroeder is the Young Adult Program coordinator at Callanish, facilitating groups and providing counselling for young adults and their families. She is also a clinical counsellor and a restorative yoga teacher.